Tender Mercies

God is truly in the detail of our lives. I’m so grateful for his tender mercies.  I was blessed with guidance to come home for a break from college. 

Toward the end of the Fall 2012 semester I was faced with the decision to continue living in Rexburg, Idaho where I had been for the past 9 months, or to come home to good ol' Texas. I looked at the pros and cons of both my choices. I had a great job in Rexburg (medical receptionist) and I felt like a good chunk of my life was there. I considered taking a few online classes if I stayed... but I literally had no more classes to take because I'd finished up my associates degree. So the idea of just working and having fun with friends the entire semester sounded amazinggggg. 

As for moving home, I could live and eat for free and save some money! (huge +) 

It seemed like it was supposed to be an easy choice and I was supposed to do what I wanted. I wanted to stay. WHAT would I even do in Texas? The possibilities of things in Rexburg were endless. But this seemed like a bigger and more important decision than the way I was treating it. It was something that required prayer. I knew that I had to pray about it. Soon after that I found out that I had a secure job waiting for me in Texas when I was home. I would be making a good amount of money working at a day-care and running a book club with first and second graders. I received my answer very clear that my right decision was to take that job and go home. 

I still fought it though. Even though I was going home, I was super sad to leave. I could change my mind at the last minute, get an apartment contract and take my stuff out of storage just like that! I struggled to understand the reason I was supposed to come home. I knew it was where I was meant to be. But why?

I realized it’s not always what we want, but what the Lord wants us to do because it’s what is best at the time and he knows this. I've learned that sometimes we must learn to put our desires on hold and be submitting to the timing of the Lord. We have to accept changes in our plans. AND be patient with this. It is all a part of His great plan. 

I am so very grateful that I listened to that prompting and decided to come home. I had no way of knowing that I NEEDED to be home. That I would have to be here with my family or only have 5 more weeks to enjoy with my Dad.